Sunday, October 20, 2019

Sermon - Nevertheless, we persist (19th Sunday after Pentecost C)


Proper 25 – Year C                                                            October 20, 2019 
Genesis 32:22-31, Luke 18:1-8                                         Panzer Liturgical Service

Life is not fair. And anyone who tells you differently is lying.

I’m pretty sure that each of you is thinking of an instance where this is true. I am overwhelmed with thoughts of good, faithful people who suffered through illness, the death of friends and family, natural disasters, or suffered under the burden of public and private discrimination. I am reminded of crooks and scoundrels, murderers and assailants, bullies and accomplices, who got away with terrible things and never suffered the consequences that the law demands.

But while God never promised us fair, He is present in the midst of our struggles. The Genesis and Luke passages speak of this well.

In the Hebrew Bible lesson from Genesis, we are confronted with Jacob, returning home after a decades-long absence. To set the story up well, we have to go back to Genesis 25 to remember who he was and why he left. Jacob was the younger twin to Esau, sons of Isaac and Rebekkah. From the very beginning, God knew that these two boys would go in opposite ways. And this caused a great deal of conflict between them from the beginning.

Esau was a man’s man – hunter, outdoorsman, and Isaac’s favorite. Jacob was a homebody - quiet and studious, and the apple of Rebekkah’s eye. So, we can already see from just a few verses how there will never be peace in this family. The ultimate conflict comes while Jacob is making a stew. Esau returns famished from working the field, and instead of just sharing what he’s made, Jacob uses it as leverage against Esau. Think of everyday battles between siblings.
Esau: Hey, give me some of that – I’m starving.
Jacob: I made this for myself – get your own food, dude.
Esau: I’ll give you whatever you want – just give me the stew.
Jacob: OK, in return, give me your right to be the heir.
Esau: I’m so hungry I might die if you don’t give it to me, so what the heck – yeah, OK.

And so, it was done.

What Esau doesn’t count on is what this would mean when his father, Isaac, actually died. Old and blind and on his death bed, he asks Esau to prepare a meal from freshly killed game, sealing Isaac’s final blessing. Meanwhile, Rebekkah schemes, preparing two lambs that Jacob brings from the pasture for Jacob to give to Isaac instead. Her reasoning is that if Jacob brings the food first, he will get the blessing reserved for Esau. And just in case the food isn’t enough to do it, she places lamb skin on Jacob’s smooth arms to trick Isaac into thinking he is Esau. And indeed, lying to Isaac several times about his identity, Jacob receives the blessing meant for his brother.

Totally not fair. And especially unfair to Esau because Jacob received his father’s blessing, and also the blessing of God. Genesis 28 highlights the vision of Jacob as he escapes from the Esau (we are climbing Jacob’s ladder) and the promise of God for many descendants and God’s protection. Jacob was so moved by this dream, that he made a sacred alter, anointed it with oil, and named it Bethel – God’s house.

Fast forward 20 years. Jacob has a large family and much wealth. He has been working for years for his father-in-law, but isn’t really feeling appreciated anymore, and in this process is called by God to return to the land where he came from. So, he gathers up his wives and children and flocks and belongings and head back home. But going home means coming to terms with Esau and the drama of his deception.

As he nears home, he sends messengers to ask that Esau allow him to come home – Be kind, he asks. The messengers return saying, “Esau is coming with 400 men.”  Think about how you would feel if you were him – this is very, very bad.

First Jacob thinks – OK, if I divide my people and my stuff into two different camps, maybe one will survive. Then he prays to God: “OK, God, you told me to come home. I don’t deserve all the blessings I have. Please keep your promise to keep me well. Save me from my brother Esau.” Lastly, he makes a gift for Esau – multiple goats and rams, camels, bulls, and donkeys, and send them ahead to soften the blow of his coming home.

At the end of the journey, he sent his personal entourage across the river, close to where Esau and his men would be. But Jacob stayed alone on the near side. Or at least he thought he was alone. The scripture just says this: 

But Jacob stayed apart by himself, and a man wrestled with him until dawn broke. 

Was it an angel? What it a man – maybe even Esau coming to exact some revenge in secret? What it the very person of God? We do not know. But we do know this. Jacob did not come away without a permanent reminder of the experience. His limp would always keep this experience close - his every going and coming would be marked by this encounter.

But the limp is not the only thing that Jacob takes away. From this time forth, his name was Israel – one who struggles with God and perseveres. In Israelite culture, names were given to tell something about that person. A change in name would indicate a significant change in status. The name “Jacob” meant “he takes by the heel,” referring to the way Esau supplanted Jacob when they were born. At this point in the story, Jacob comes into his own independent destiny. He confronts his past and comes out on top.

This is not just a story about the person Israel, but also the people of Israel, and the story about their relationship with God. The land of Israel defined itself as a people who refused to let go of God. They would fight with God to demand that Yahweh bless them. They were a people willing to be changed, even damaged in that exchange, because they knew that attaining that blessing was worth the sacrifice. They were not a people of passive faith.

For Christians, heirs of the Jewish faith, this story gives us a vivid model for prayer. God is not looking for lukewarm followers. God rewards those who are willing to fight for the heavenly blessing. In this story, God is unrecognizable to the bystander, until the blessing is requested – that would have been for God alone to give. It is in wrestling with God that Jacob’s heirs – even us – see God’s face.

Turning over the Genesis 33, we know that Esau forgives Jacob and for a while, all is well. Lesson learned: God is with us in the blessing and the struggle – and sometimes the struggle is the blessing, even if we end up limping away.

This is not an unusual view of prayer in the Hebrew Bible. Look at Job, Lamentations, the Psalms and you will see this same idea – God’s presence and blessing are not only given in the good times, but even more often as we struggle to see God in our lives at all. In the gospel reading for this Sunday, Jesus’ parable of the woman who nags the judge until he gives her what she wants (Luke 18:1-8) extends this definition of faith into the New Testament.[i] God rewards those who won’t let go.
(c) Ana B Design

The persistent widow in Jesus’ parable from Luke 18 is that kind of woman… she will not settle for injustice, even in the case of a judge who did not fear God or respect the people he served. He refused to hear her case many times, but she still kept coming, becoming a real thorn in his side. Finally, he said, “Enough already – I’ll find in her favor just to keep her out of my hair.” I’m pretty sure that every parent, teacher, boss and child knows this feeling… alright already – please let’s move on to something else.

But let’s not be confused. Jesus is not saying that God is the unjust and angry judge – it’s actually the opposite. He says, “If this no-good judge can dispense justice in light of a persistent widow, how much more will God, who is infinitely just, fulfill our prayers, even if it’s not in the ways we expect.” Jesus is reminding us that we are to be diligent, and even persistent in orienting ourselves toward God.[ii]

One of the biggest mistakes we can make is falling into the belief that our prayers are a checklist which we expect God to tick off according to our timelines. Prayer is not just talking to God. It is also listening to God. 

We do this when we read and study scripture. Memorizing verses is good, but I’m also a believer in reading the biblical story like a good book, taking note of the ways our own lives are mirrored in the lives of our biblical heroes and even its villains. Listening to God happens in worship, as the words of our liturgy, which stay basically the same every week, take on new meaning in light of a scripture or a hymn or something that happened during the week.

Listening to God happens in our Christian conversation with friends and family. I am always amazed at the ways that others can give me new perspective on my most urgent prayer requests, leading me to accept or enable solutions that I would never have thought of myself.

When Jacob began his journey back home, he was being obedient, but he was also afraid. He laid out several contingency plans to save his flocks, his family and his servants. But in the end, he also expected the worst – that Esau would reject him or even exact justice due him for the harm done to Esau and his family so many years before. Ultimately, Esau forgave him, but Jacob always carried with him a permanent reminder of the struggles and the blessings of his life. That didn’t make him any less blessed or justice any less present.

Both of these stories remind us that God doesn’t fit in to an easy mold, be it “wrathful God” or the “God who solves all my problems.” Like Jacob, we often come away from our encounters with God with amazing blessings, but sometimes we also come away limping, permanently marked. Like the widow, in our persistence, we receive justice, often more than we are due, because of the boundless generosity of our God, who is intimately engaged with us, who seeks us out, reacts to our persistence, and blesses us in ways we would never have chosen ourselves.

If there is any lesson I take away from today it is this: Our God not like us – God is wily, unpredictable, dangerous and just. God will always stay the course – we are called to have the courage and persistence to claim the blessing that is ours.[iii]

Nevertheless, we persist!

Peace, Deb

Saturday, September 28, 2019

Sermon - It doesn't have to be too late (Proper 20C)


Proper 20 C – Pentecost 15 C – Luke 16:1-13      September 22, 2019

Jesus uses parables to teach those following him what it means to live in the Kingdom of God. The term parable is translated from Greek as “to place side by side.” Jesus wants people to do more than hear the story. He wants us to step inside the story, to see in others’ shoes. Sometimes this is easy. We can often identify with multiple characters – last week we heard from Chap Lovell three parables of lost things… sheep, coins and people. As I listened, I could see myself as every character – even the sheep and the neighbors that got awakened in the night.

But some are easier than others. If you ever needed evidence that the gospel can also be offensive, look no further. For the second week in a row, the protagonist is flawed, not “our” kind of people.  And of course, it’s that flawed character who helps us see that God can use everyone to grow the Kingdom. Still, this one feels especially difficult.[i]

I don’t think it’s the content of the story itself. We see this story lived out in the news every day. There is clearly a villain and we know who it is from the very first verse. We don’t know what his crime is but we do see plenty of evidence that he’s trying to clean up the mess he made. Surely, there is no doubt that this man’s behavior is not to be admired or repeated.

So, how crazy is it that Jesus defends the end result of the manager’s behavior, calling him “shrewd.” I taught this parable in our PWOC bible study last Spring, and of all the ones we did, this one was the hardest to get our heads around. For me, the paradox lies in the use of the word “shrewd.” Before I studied this parable, I thought of the word shrewd in a negative context. But I looked it up in several dictionaries and found that this is way down the list. Merriam-Webster defines it this way: marked by clever discerning awareness and hardheaded acumen – i.e. common sense… to which I say, “WHAT?” so, how do we fit that piece into the puzzle?

On the surface, we see a problem with money, graft and corruption. But what if that’s not all it’s about? What if this manager is stealing something even more valuable than what the property produces? Hidden deep within the story is another thread. Sure, we easily see the manager manipulating the landowner’s financial health. But what if the manager has damaged something much more valuable… what if this is a really about damaging his boss’s reputation?[ii]

You see, I think the manager knows this is the real problem. That’s why he works so hard to clean up the mess before he goes. He went all in for a solution that would protect not only him, but also the boss. Nothing good comes from the tenants mistrusting their landlord, so the manager’s solution not only pads his own slide from grace, but allows for the tenants to show their gratitude and help him get back on his feet. To this end, he not only gets a great response from the tenants, but also ingratiates them to the landowner, whom they now see as generous and kind.

Once he was found out, the manager understood that the landowner’s reputation must be protected. So, while we want the manager to get what he deserves, the landowner knows that his best bet is to let it ride. He understands that the manager has actually come up with a solution that benefits everyone. The manager doesn’t get prosecuted for a crime, and the tenants are grateful to both him and to the landowner.

So, what do we do with this new insight? With careful reading, we can tease Jesus’ response into several strands. First, Jesus never condones the manager’s dishonest behavior. He calls him out just by telling the story the way he does. But he also sees wisdom in the manager’s attempt to make the situation better. And that’s the kind of behavior that Jesus does want us to pay attention to. Roughly translated, he’s saying, “Hey, it’s not too late to do something good with whatever you have. In fact, it’s the very evidence that you understand who I am.”

After that, there are lots of place to peel off. Today, many of churches are using this passage to talk about stewardship and budget building, often in very appropriate ways. But money is just one element of the story.

Consider the climate crisis. The world is in a real pickle right now when thinking about how lives are being threatened. Don’t think climate change is real? Talk to the people of Houston, who average 50 inches of rain per year as Hurricane Imelda dumped 15 inches on Thursday alone, while hosting their third 500-year flood in three years. [iii] Read the Scientific American report that shows a 29% decrease in the bird population since 1970, with the loss of over 3 BILLION birds in North America alone, actually a conservative estimate.[iv]

Consider population migration. Millions of people have fled their homelands to search for a better, safer life. Are they making dangerous journeys to new lands because the grass is always greener on the other side? Not usually. Migrants are fleeing war, government corruption and loss of the ability for their land to sustain them. Think about that. They believe that staying home is more life-threatening – more dangerous – than overcrowding a boat to make it to European shores, or walking 1200+ miles through dangerous in-between lands for the chance at a safer, more stable life.[v]

Consider all the factors that create vulnerability in our world: poverty, racism, gun violence, sexism & gender-based violence… the list goes on and on. The level of negative news has the potential to make us lose hope. But these are the very places where we as Jesus’ people are called to act – to restore the reputation of God and Jesus for the sins that we have committed by considering our own needs more important that the needs of others.[vi]

You see, we live with feet in two worlds. On one side, we work and learn and gather what we need to make a comfortable life. Sometimes we are more successful at it than others. The problem comes when the collecting of things becomes the purpose of our lives, turning us away from helping people and places with great needs. If nothing else, this story is a friendly reminder that Jesus wants us all to play from the same sheet of music... To make his priorities our priorities, his values our values.[vii]
 
Fortunately, some days we get it right, and that gives us hope.    

  • On Friday, millions gathered in thousands of cities on all 7 continents to raise ever-increasing concern over the crisis of climate and pollution on our planet.    
  • Remember the dwindling bird populations? The only birds that saw an increase in population were waterfowl, largely credited to the work of conservation groups like Ducks Unlimited, who forged a path for hunters, outdoor enthusiasts, and scientists to work together to save these species and their homes. 
  •  Also on Friday, we celebrated World Humanitarian Day to honor those who respond to crises around the globe, and to reflect on how we, as global citizens, might respond better, smarter and more effectively to the needs of those who suffer.[viii]  Religious bodies and non-governmental agencies alike voiced the need for us to work together in places big and small in the belief that many hands make lighter work and honor God.

The key to real wealth is not a winning lottery ticket, following up a hot stock tip or taking advantage of others. Our true wealth is the legacy of our rebirth in Christ.  This is the life for which we were created and offered salvation. In the waters of baptism, we are saved, not by something that we do, but by the mystical power of God to cleanse us with living water that frees us from the burden of spiritual thirst. But this gift will wither and die if we aren’t living in Christ’s love. That is what being saved is all about… responding to extravagant love with extravagant love. And it’s never too late to make a difference, to love of all our neighbors, near and far, just because we can.

Each of us is called to live out a call. For some that means working in the church. But for most, it is about living out Christ’s love in whatever vocations we choose. Soldier or airman, teacher or doctor, childcare worker, student, janitor, electrician, school lunch lady … it doesn’t matter what work we do. Whatever that work is, we are called to do it with love. This is how we, like the manager, can repair God’s reputation in the world.

So, here is how I interpret or paraphrase Jesus’ closing remarks. They are our marching orders as we go back to live in the world. He said,
The manager was shrewd enough to get his house in order before things got really bad. But you should think about not letting your lives get that much out of control. I’m here to turn things upside down, to readjust your thinking. Don’t accept the world’s take on life. Hear this: Little things don’t just matter – they actually matter the most, because they say everything about who you are.

I saw a picture yesterday of teen activist Greta Thunberg. It was taken in August of 2018. She decided to strike from school and was sitting alone in front of the Swedish Parliament building with a sign that said, Schools Strike for Climate. But she didn’t come up with this idea by herself. She was inspired by students from Marjorie Stoneman Douglas High School in Florida who refused to go back to school until their concerns about gun violence in schools were heard after the death of 20 of their classmates.[ix]

Over the last year, students in many countries have protested climate policy calling them Fridays for Future. Two days ago, only one year and one month later, over four million students and adult allies in 160 countries joined her cause. They speak with their voices and their feet to people in power - governments, businesses, and educational institutions. United, they show us that they are a force to be reckoned with, with this explicit message: Step up. Quit stalling. Do something now, because if you don’t, it will be too late for us later.[x]

Think it’s too late? Think you don’t have anything worthwhile to contribute, or that previous mistakes will weigh you down? That’s not the way it works. Even the dishonest manager realized that he had to make a change. Hear again the words of Jesus, “Whoever is faithful in a very little is faithful also in much.” Be assured, whatever we do in love matters – it actually means everything.

Peace, Deb



Saturday, August 10, 2019

Sermon - Be Prepared (14C)


TENTH SUNDAY AFTER PENTECOST, YEAR C (Proper 14)  August 11, 2019

Luke 12:32-40, Genesis 15:1-6, Hebrews 11:1-3, 8-16

Be Prepared

From the time I was in junior high school, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. My aunt was a medical technologist, and from the first time she took me to visit her hospital lab in Dallas, I set my eye on the prize. It informed the classes that I took in high school and the colleges I applied to. The degree work was rigorous. Four years of class work in three years – no elective or soft classes. A 12-month course of study at a med tech school. At the end of it all, I landed the job of my dreams.

I had it all planned out – two years as a tech, licensing as a specialist, onward and upward to a supervisory position. Piece of cake. Until it wasn’t. When I was offered that supervisor’s job at a new hospital in Florida, I hit a brick wall. There were many tears and headaches that almost crippled me. I had exactly the life I imagined so why couldn’t I stop crying?

The day I had to give my answer, my pastor dropped by and took me to the cafeteria for frozen yogurt. I poured out my heart. I was confused that I hadn’t found happiness in fulfilling my plan. In the end he asked the important question, “What if God has something else in mind? What if that was the plan all along?” So, I said no to the new job and waited to figure out what would come next.

These last few weeks we have been in the 11th and 12th chapters of Luke’s gospel, and we have heard from Jesus the keys to discipleship. Today, Jesus teaches us a lesson in personal and communal treasure: to keep our stuff and our plans from owning us, we have to always be ready to change direction. Jesus says this way … be ready, be alert, pay attention – wait for the Lord. In two words, be prepared.

In the Genesis lesson, God makes a promise to Abram that he will be the father to many generations, and while Abram believes, the journey was not without its detours. But God did not go back on the promises. In fact, God’s trustworthiness lives on in us. God’s covenant with Abram is still in force today.[i] Jesus tells us the same thing. Yes, it’s easy for us to map out what we think will be the perfect life. Sometimes it works out, sometimes it doesn’t. But even when we are not able to see God’s promises before us, God is faithful and asks the same of us.

In short, it’s all about faith. The epistle lesson reminds us that Abraham and Sarah set out with little more than a promise to into a great unknown. They did all of that because they had faith in the promise of God. What is faith? The Hebrews passage opens up with this: “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” But I love a quote from Oswald Chambers even more: “Faith is the deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time.”

The unifying message is this: living faithfully means learning to think and act in a whole new way. Which sounds really good until you are confronted with an unknown future. My future in medical technology was detoured after  a six years back and forth with God (and others) over seminary. I remember the feeling as I watched my college roommate and her fiancé drive away with the U-Haul truck and my Clemson season football tickets… O Lord, what have I done? In the end, the answer was, “You paid your way through school with a very marketable skill.”

A few years later, I made a trip to Camp Daniel Boone to visit our churrch’s Boy Scout troop at summer camp. I arrived midafternoon with three ice-cold watermelons and a very sharp knife, expecting to find them swimming in the ice-cold NC lake. But I couldn’t find them anywhere. Someone sent me to look for them at the archery pit. But no boys there either. With no other options, I headed to their campsite to see if they had left me a note.

As I hiked up the road, I saw in a distance our boys, and as I got closer, I could see them sitting in a half circle around a huge rock firepit, each boy reading the 12 scout laws from the handbook, and talking about how they had not lived up to them so far that week… a scout is trustworthy, kind, courteous… I thought, “wow, it’s already been a very long week.”

When their very easy-going scout masters finally lost their cool, these guys learned an important lesson. Memorizing the rules of scouting is very different than living them day in and day out. It took going back to the book to refocus their week. And I remember the senior patrol leader saying, “We’re here to learn. Maybe having three really bad days will remind us of why we’re in scouting and how good it can be. We can do this. We can… and we will. Now let’s go eat lunch.”

Moments of clarity like that often strike when we least expect them. In this passage, Jesus is once again instructing us to pay attention to what’s going on around us. He says it this way: Be alert for the master who might come in the night. Take charge of your life and your living, rather than letting life take hold of you. Live simply. Help others. Know what is important to you, and keep that always at the front of your mind and in sync with how you live your life.

People have often asked what gave me the courage to take that step of faith toward something so different than my original dream. In the end, I just had to go. It was the only way to find peace. Do I wish I had figured it out sooner? In the beginning – yes, but today, no – because those steps of faith led me here… to this husband, this life, this ministry, this moment, this word.

I caught a glimpse of the Wizard of Oz a few weeks ago, and I realized that when the four main characters introduce themselves, it’s always with the caveat “if only…” If I only had a brain. If I only had a heart. If I only had courage. If I only could find my way home.

Jesus came to us to take the “if only” phrase out of our speech. He did that by reminding of us of these things. First, “Don’t be afraid.” To live in the Kingdom of God is to live in a realm without fear. Jesus said here we are not to fear because it is God’s pleasure to give us the kingdom. But the absence of fear is achieved only when we are filled with love. Being filled with love for God is the door we open to enter the Kingdom of God. This is good news. But it is also scary. Perhaps that’s what so many life-changing angel encounters start with the phrase, “Fear not.” That doesn’t mean not being vigilant. Instead, it means being open to the unexpected, for it may be exactly the right thing at exactly the right time.

Today’s second promise is that we will always have enough – enough to live and enough to give. I like to think of it as our eternal purse. There is a parallel text in Matthew that says we are to “lay up treasure in heaven.” Now the treasure of heaven, the stuff of an eternal purse, is not money, but is rooted in relationship. It’s the love of neighbors and enemies. It’s the gospel – the good news of Jesus Christ shared with the world – abundant and eternal life. Through our sharing and our giving, God’s work is done in the world.

How can we be ready for the Lord’s return? Some interpret “being ready” in terms of morality, asking “are we good people who do good things?” But in reality, none of us, no matter how good we are, is ready for the Lord’s return just because we are good. Readiness for Jesus’ return is grounded in the quality of relationship that we have with Him and with his world.  When someone you love walks in the door after an absence, your response is immediate happiness – think coming home from deployment or summer camp.  Our readiness to receive Jesus is a consequence of love which we have for God. And that love must be reflected in the way we live.

Scott Harrison was a nightclub promoter and professional partier. His wealth and popularity grew by leaps and bounds, but after his 28th birthday, a health crisis revealed something much deeper… existential and spiritual emptiness. Was this all there was to life? He looked for answers in service, and spent almost two years on a hospital ship off the coast of Liberia in Africa as a volunteer photo journalist, documenting life-changing surgical stories and learning how the lack of clean drinking water is a major factor in the health crises of the world. Over 600 million people live without access to clean water. Women and children spend the majority of their days seeking water. Maybe he could do something to change that. He returned to NYC and with the help of 10 friends, started charity:water. 

In the last 13 years, charity:water has dug wells, piped water, and developed sand-filtered systems for collecting rainwater in over 38,000 projects. 9.8 million people in 27 countries now have access to clean water, freeing up women to work, and children to go to school. All because a man who thought he had everything realized he had nothing if he wasn’t doing something to connect to people in need.[ii] And in turn, reconnected with God.

Life in Christ is about growing into the promises he makes. As we grow in love, we grow less and less afraid. As we grow in love, we discover ourselves focused more and more on eternal relationships, and less and less on what surrounds us. As we grow in love, we await Jesus’ coming not with dread, but with joy.  Jesus said, “Do not be afraid, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” But remember this: You never know when and where Jesus might call. So be prepared.

A Franciscan Benediction

May God bless you with discomfort
At easy answers, half-truths and superficial relationships
So that you may live deep within your heart.

May God bless you with anger
At injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people,
So that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.

May God bless you with tears
To shed for those who suffer pain, rejection, hunger, and war,
So that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and
To turn their pain into joy.

And may God bless us with just enough foolishness
To believe that we can make a difference in the world,
So that we can do what others claim cannot be done:
To bring justice and kindness to all our children and all our neighbors who are poor. Amen.
Amen.[iii]

Deb Luther Teagan © 2019 Panzer Liturgical Service, USAG Stuttgart



[i] Sara Koenig, The Working Preacher, http://www.workingpreacher.org/preaching.aspx?commentary_id=1730
[ii] https://my.charitywater.org/
[iii] https://brianmclaren.net/a-franciscan-benediction/
Also see Bruce Epperly, The Adventurous Lectionary for August 11: The Gift of an Uneasy Conscience, https://www.patheos.com/blogs/livingaholyadventure/2013/08/the-adventurous-lectionary-the-gift-of-an-uneasy-conscience-august-11-2013/